so as the days go by in this battle of purseption and projection I still have a way of allowing myself to deal with what I deal with in a neutral to positive outlook do to doing what it takes to keep my energy at an above average level when available. I do have my ups and downs but it seems as if the audience or whoever I call them waits for moments of weakness to.....ill say i am unsure really. thinking in a postitive or negative light is your decision. do what it takes to keep you on top of you.